yes, for over a year. on meds and therapy
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How many of you have had panic/anxiety attacks at the KH or...
by berylblue in...cried through a meeting and, if so, what were the reasons?.
i cried through a lot of meetings at my second congregation while i was still in good standing.
i couldn't stop myself; i'd just cry quietly.
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what to do about the memorial?
by free will ini've recently stopped attending meetings, due to being disillusioned with the truth.
but, i am confused on how to commemorate the memorial.
i don't want to go to the hall.
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i've recently stopped attending meetings, due to being disillusioned with the truth. but, i am confused on how to commemorate the memorial. i don't want to go to the hall. but, i want to commemorate his death. any ideas?
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confused
by free will ini'm a newbie who has recently admitted to myself that 'the truth' isn't the truth.
i'm struggling with my new found freedom.
i don't know what truths i should believe anymore.
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WHOA....francois...that concept is a little too much for me now...but, i thank you for telling me about jehovah's origin...i'd be interested to know where i should look for more info... and to all, thank you for your compassion.
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Did I turn my back on Jehovah's True Organization?
by sandy ini was wondering as i have been lately; did i turn my back on god and am i wrong for turning my back on the organization?.
are there any of you out there that feel like you have a real personal relationship with god with or without religion in your life?
do you still call god jehovah?
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regarding real life experiences... (when you asked god for help and jw's came)... you could use the same logic that jw's use when they hear of a catholic's - or other religion - spiritual experience. it was the demons shaping that moment - to make you think that god wanted you back in the organization...but beneath it all the demons got you to go away from god. too confusing?
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If You Could Explain To A Witness WHY They Are Wrong, Would You Want To?
by minimus inand would you personally, be able to make a clear explanation as to why the witnesses are so wrong??
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no. if they are true believers, they wouldn't admit anything. the standby is "new light" they have earmuffs on.
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I need to ask a question...
by nightwarrior inafter reading flowers posting about her brother, it really got me thinking (a dangerous occupation with me) lol, what is it about the jws, that when you are in the org, you feel that you are in the'right religion', and then wham, something happens, to make you realise that things are not so rosey as you were first led to believe.. so my point is.. when you leave the 'org' you feel such great relief, as if a burden has been lifted from your shoulders, and that you feel that at long last (as in my case) you can really develop a good relationship with our creator... but, if it were the 'true religion' surely we would feel downhearted and oppressed in leaving, and really we would not want to leave at all, as all things would be made clear to us, and we would feel happy again, but that is not the case.. i hope that this makes sense.
as at the moment my mother and sisters are still not speaking to me, it has now been a month, and the tatic i know, is that by (hopefully) ignoring me, i will come to my senses and return to the fold, and maybe even leave my sweet talking evil slave class husband!!
(yeah right).
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i understand your dilemna - i'm there myself. no shunning yet, as i haven't been df or da'd. but, if you feel good - go with it.
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sorry about that....i posted correctly in another thread..
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confused
by free will ini'm a newbie who has recently admitted to myself that 'the truth' isn't the truth.
i'm struggling with my new found freedom.
i don't know what truths i should believe anymore.
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hello all. i'm a newbie who has recently admitted to myself that 'the truth' isn't the truth. i'm struggling with my new found freedom. i don't know what truths i should believe anymore. my biggie is how do i worship jehovah now. i was raised a jw, had a long hiatus then came back into the fold to be baptized. i realize now that during my hiatus, i would pray to jehovah often. now i don't pray at all. i felt closer then than i do now. i would look at a simple creek and praise jah for it's beauty. but, i don't do that anymore. i've been inactive for awhile now. although the elders don't know it by my service report. but i've attended meetings only sporadically. got called in for the big talk, soon thereafter, i realized i've been too burdened with society rules. i felt guilty for not going to the meetings like i should, i felt guilty for lying about my service report, i felt guilty that i didn't agree wholeheartedly with the org. i felt i'd betrayed god. so, i didn't pray. then i learned about the un thing and felt sort of vindicated. the blinders came off. i've been able to find out more things that prove to me that i have been trying to be loyal to the organization, not to god. (paraphrased from ray franz crisis of conscience). but where does that leave me? how do i feed my spirituality and not fall into the same trap again?....thanks for listening....sorry so long.
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Did I turn my back on Jehovah's True Organization?
by sandy ini was wondering as i have been lately; did i turn my back on god and am i wrong for turning my back on the organization?.
are there any of you out there that feel like you have a real personal relationship with god with or without religion in your life?
do you still call god jehovah?
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sandy, i feel the same way you do. i haven't had the courage yet to pray again. my question is - where do we go from here. i've been raised as a jw, and so don't know where to go. what to do. but, i've a feeling we'll find out when we get there.